I’ve often wondered why I seem to surround myself in what causes me pain and loneliness… bringing me on the path of unhappiness. To call yourself a masochist is one thing, but truly consider what you are doing to yourself.
Asking for such things that make my feel this sorrow; it makes me wonder why I refuse the path to happiness. I’ve come to thinking it is because the pain in heart break and loneliness is much greater than happiness and love.
Or, it could be that I don’t know how to maximize the pleasure of finding and being truly in love. Once I find this, or shall I say once love finds me will then I become truly happy.
Or it must be, because maintaining love and cultivating this happiness that I desire so badly takes much more work than being alone and sulking in the sorrows I have come accustomed to.
We hold ourselves in the position of despair. We become prisoners of pure thoughts. We drag out the hurt of a relationship we had. The picture we created of the perfect couple was only a deception of our imagination.
In reality, when it truly is perfect we won’t have to create a perfect picture - it would develop into perfection without comparison.
Just stop, breathe, let it go, and wait. Love will find you while you’re being yourself. Once you stop looking and creating fairy tales, it will come.
